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Thursday, March 31, 2005
yEah... this is Charming right? hahaha.. I changed blogskin again. So fast. I think barely use my own created blog skin for 1 week i changed it again. Now, i only want to know how to put in music. But never mind. Think i am too lazy anyway.
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So yesterday was the last day of exams. Call for a celebration! haha.. after the FFA exams, everyone was like sO hAppy. Finally! Exams Over! haha.. oKiez... time to have fun. JiaYi, Suhana, Roslin, YaHui, Eugene, Teresa, Darryl and i think still got ppl?.. went to PS to watch Movies. haha.. but i don't know which movie. ChinPei and Jenny went to Orchard shop shop. Hannah and Binghui wanted Edmund to join them for Pool. But in the end, Hannah and Binghui went to play pool. Because i don't want to play pool. Edmund and I went to Heeren and Cine. hAha.. i jUst got this feeling and another contradicting feeling in me... it was like.. are you sure... nvm..
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haha.. sO we went to Heeren. Went to Billy Bombers and ate.. erm... dinner. haha.. Edmund said MC Chicken as MaC Chicken. I was the only one laughing when he said that because i was the only person who noticed it. Cannot stop it. Hmm, i ate Seafood paradise. Edmund drank RootBeer Float and i drank Ice Lemon Tea. Later, we ate strawberry Ice Cream. haha... we saw a big mosqito like insect. Dun like it.
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haha.. we walked around Cine before watching Son.Of.The.Mask. haha.. one of the shops had some interesting items. haha... like a measuring tape hidden in a toy cover or something. Then there were puzzles for us to solve. Funn...
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hMm.. the movie was okiez. haha... erm.. but quite funny. The female dog in the show... Look real like Jessie but the spots are different. haha.. Later after watching the movie we went home.
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The next day, which is today, a Thursday. I woke up at 8.20am. Bathe and everything. haha.. went out with Mummy and aunty. Went to help Mummy do some things. So Boring. haha... it was written all over my face. haha.. Okiez. So after doing the stuff, we went to have breakfast. Finally. haha.. I was sO hungry. But after the food came and all, i found it hard to eat and swallow the food. I don't know why. But it was just so difficult. So i did not finish it.
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After eating, Mummy and aunty went to work. Oh, Mummy talked to me about some things and i found out some ugly truth about some things and people and stuff. Not gOod. haha... So i went Orchard myself. At around 10am Plus i was already at Orchard. I walked around till 12.30pm. haha... my legs a bit aching already. hMm.. anyway, i asked for job vacancies from some shops but they don't want to employ temporary workers. So i didn't get the job. Okiez. I also walked around and lOok around. At 12.30pm, i met Jenny at Far East and we walked around and Shop shOp. Then Jenny ate Ramen Ten. hAha.. after that, we went to Lido and bought the tickets for Be.Cool and Shop there. Later, we waited for Edmund in front of the Big Television. haha.. Edmund reached. After many many many minutes of staring at the Big Television, we went to the theatre.
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In the theatre, we sat down. Someone came and said that we were sitting on his seat. Hmm.. i was like.. hmm... are you sure i see wrongly?? I mean hOw? It is G 10 to G 12. hahaha... okiez.. so the person went to his seat which was 2 rows ahead when we were shifting halfway. Watch movie. haha.. oKiez... it is a Okiez movie and Funny. hahaha..
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After watching movie, we went shopping. haha... then we went hOme.
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At home, dinner was Chicken Rice. haha.. So long never eat chicken rice at home. hMm.. okiez Chicken Rice reminds me of Chua Chu Kang. haha... the B1 foodcourt. The little boy who sat beside my table and ae Chicken rice too. hahaha... he was pouring the soup to the plate full of rice. And it became Flooded Chicken Rice. hahaha... Edmund was very.. amused by that. hahaha..
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+__ Sure you want to come with me? __+
7:54 PM


Tuesday, March 29, 2005
[Second dAy oF Exams]

yEah.... Business management is finally gOne!!! hAha.... study till like want to puke for BM. hAha.. now can only hope can pass so no need to retake or anything. haha.. yEah... Onl the second day or... second last day of exams then got celebrating mOod. haha... a bit siao. hmm.. bUt as long as BM no more i happy liaoz.

hMm.. woke up late this mOrning. haha... was suppose to wake up at 7.15am and set off at 8.15am. I wOke up at 8.15am and set off at 8.50am. hAha... sO stupid. Then i reached school at 9.20am. I met Edmund and then we study a little bit and then we went to McD to eat breakfast. ahaha... eating like playing with fOod. Yupz.. we ate Big Breakfast. haha.. after eating, we study a bit. After studying, we went back to school and study at Canteen2. Chin Pei came and then BingHui came then Eugene and Yahui. Then slowly... Everyone came.. Got Jenny.. JiaYi.. Suhana.. Teresa.. erm... erm... still got or no more liaoz arh.. i fOrgot.

Went for the BM paper.. then went hOme.. haha. On my way hOme, i discovered that another girl that is from NP is staying at my block. hEehx... so including her i got 2 ppl from NP at level 14.. wander if they are brother sister.. and another person from NP at level 25. cOol hOr... next time make friends then take taxi home together can save cost. hahahaha... jk..
5:41 PM


Monday, March 28, 2005
[First dAy of eXams]

haha... finally it is done but is only the first exam macroeconomics. So bad. haha... well.. i finished the paper at 10.30am. Check a little bit then i lazy to check again. Because don't feel like it. And also tired already. So i wrote what i felt on the question paper. hAha.. is actually nothing. Everything is complicated with different people's point of view so there should be nothing wrong. I just hOpe to find back that something. But it seems like you have discarded it a long time ago and not willing to find any of that something. It felt like a break off from something. But if you want it, i have no choice and not at any position to stop it. I am not keeping anything from you.


So after the exams, Me and Chinpei went to buy sandwich to eat. Then Jenny went went hOme first. After eating, we went to Bishan Mac to study. Study study study.. At around 3 plus pm, i saw Mummy, and friends. ahahaha... sound like a cartoon name. hAha... okiez... anyways, quite excited then ChinPei say i said MUMMY like quite lOud. hahaha... excited mAhz.. Then i went to their table and talk a while. Later i went back. hMm.. today i learned how to clean my specs.. hahaha... lesson from ChinPei. haha... i don't really clean the specs.. only raise with water and then wipe dry. So continued to study.... hAha... then Edmund heard that my Mummy is here then don't want to come liaoz. hahaha...

Then when we are going home, i went to Mummy table again. Then talk a bit of things. hAha.. ChinPei came also. Then ChinPei say... u staying or going.. I abit stoning and very blur then never say anything. Then Mummy say... your fren talking to you. Then i still StonING... then finally after a few times of repeating what she said, i said.. then you want me to go home or stay?!?!?! Again, i talk quite loud. hahaha... i realised it also. Sorry... like sO rUDe...

Okiez... so we went hOme. On the way to the bus stop, i saw Yvonne YF and said.... that girl look very like Yvonne.. hMm... or i think she is Yvonne. hahahahaha... i am sO bLur today. Then Chinpei and I called her name then she turn here. We just said bye bye and go le...

I think i bLUR till cannot today. hAha... i think people asking me questions i also blur blur there dai dai de. Must be more alert...

+_Are you running away?_+
5:28 PM


Friday, March 25, 2005
[When?]

hAha... when... when... when.. When are you coming hOme? When can i finish studying at this rate? When will i be more opeN and forget what i am still afraid of? When can i taste the taste of what i wanna taste? When will i be more sensible and not so... erm... anti-social. When can i ever trust myself? When will i find myself as well as whatever i want to find. And many when(s).... that i cannot tell.. cannot say.. and haven thought of. When will people understand me? nEver.

hAha... today i woke up late again. Oh nO. I have to train myself to be able to wake up once i hear the alarm. hAhaha.. sO i tried to study. In the end, my younger brother complain and said," Is jie jie talking on the phone or studying?" Waa... like so irritating lo.. They read louder than me then complain me.. -___- pIG. hMph.. sO i continued to study.

Later in the afternoon, Mummy, kOrKor, Weisong and me went to Joo Chiat the Ba Ku Teh to have lunch. heEhx.. lOve the food a lot. haha.. then keep eating and eating. hAIz... i think i gaining weight these days. oOh nOo..

After eating, we went hOme. Then i went to meet Edmund to study at Yishun. We walked around. Then sat at LongJohnSliver and tried to study but the air-con wasn't working. Next destination was BurgerKing. At Burger King, we stayed only a while then we went hOme. bEcause we felt tired and need to rest. So we went hOme lo. Then Edmund bought Pepsi twist.. the bOttle kind. hahaha... then he kept shaking the bottle. All the gas came out then he open and close and open close. I went to Open it and ALL the gas came out. Hands full of pepsi twist. haha.. clean my hands on Edmund's sleeve. =P

When i reached hOme, i never study liaoz.. sO kept watching television. hAha.. sO bOring mahz... hAiz... hOpe i can pass lo. Wish me gOod luck.. =) tHank yOu

+_When will be the time?_+
8:37 PM


Wednesday, March 23, 2005
[Movies]

hMm.. so today started... as usual. hAha.. i woke up late by an hour. I should wake up at around 730am but i woke up at 830am. I think... haha.. sO i did the normal things and went to Wooldlands to study with Edmund.. =)

So i reached and waited for some time before Edmund came. After he reached, we went to McDonalds to study. At that Mcdonalds, we can see many people of different age groups. hahaha... race as well. hMm.. then around lunch time became quite noisy. The worst group of people i came across there are the lower secondary people. hAha... LAME GUYS... keep scolding bad words... and tAlk so much rubbish... So Stupid... i hATe gangsters... And.. pEople who like... coward like crazy.. talking biG.. hAiz... they cannot find better things to do? Only know how to plan things and harm people using force... Useless...

Okiez.. so after that, we went to eat at the food court. After that we walked around and explore a little bit then we went to the library. hAha... the library... very "quiet". This is only for the first level. hMm... for the other levels, it is quite quiet. hMm... after we studied for some time, we explored the library and then went hOme.

I reached home barely 5 minutes, i have to get out of the house. hAha.. yEah.. i got chased out by my dog. JK. My brother "arranged" for me and my younger brother to go catch a movie at 7.40pm at Suntec. The movie is called... Spongebob Square Pants. hAha... it was funny and FUnny and fuNNy... also lAme a bit.. hahaha... But i don't mind. Coz can entertain me and my younger brother.. made us laugh.. So fUnny.

Before we went to watch the movie, we went to MiniToons. We bought $1.90 worth of sweets. An organizer that cost $3.90 from me to him. hAha... juSt to make him happy la. =) Then we bought... A popcorn combo.. $7. I think i spent a lot liaoz lo. hAiz.. haha... After the movies, i bought 2 small balls for him.. $1. Then like that lo. He still want me to buy the Origama set... then i say.. nO more money... then run away liaoz.. hahahaha... He tried to drag me back to the shop... =P Of coz i never went back lo.

Mummy came to fetch us back home.. haha.. sO tired. hAhaha... Weisong soOoOOoo cUte. Next time can bring him out more.. haha... then he will talk a lot but i dun really 100% understand what he say.. =P hOpe we can talk more also la. =)

+_FuUuUnNnNNnnNn dAy_+
10:47 PM


Tuesday, March 22, 2005
[Second Time]

hMm.. this is the second entry for today. oOhHhh... It is sO very boring. haha... i think after this then i will start to study again. heehx. I feel sO lazy now. Actually just woke up. I slept at 730pm to 830pm. Was supposed to wake up at 8pm but tOo lazy to pull myself up. hMm, i woke up because Xu Bin called me and asked me if i was free on Sat and Sun. hAha... then i said that i am goint to have my exams on Mon to Wed. After awhile, she said,"You crying arhz." hAha.. then i say... nO lAA.. i just woke up. hEehx.. must be because i sound weak or bLur or hMm.. dUn know. hAhahaha... oKiez... So nOw i know when i just woke up i sound like i am crying bahz.

hMm.. i think sounded like crying because i cried abit bahz. hAha... cOz before i sleep i read someting very sad. So Very SAD.. hAiz... but.. nothing is impossible or impossible is nothing. hMm.. i really hope something like that will not happen. But i know.....Blah........ be prepared...

hMm.. i think i am behind time already. But i still feel lAzy lehz.. =P AhHh... So weird. hMm.. I feel so weird. hAha... is something like. A paper jammed in the printer. Jammed so the paper cannot come out... like words that cannot come out. I don't know. Ran out of my Saggitarius Wit. hEehx... cannot really joke around. Is like nothing new so how to say things. Hmm.. don't know this side of me is who my papa or like my mama...

+Finding mE...+
9:18 PM


~New Blog Skin~

hAha.. today i changed my bLog skin agaiN... Cannot help it. Everytime, the blog skin will not use for long one. Must change blog skin. Hands itchy... =P

~Tuesday~

haha. sO today i had my BCA exam. hMm.. is quite easy. I think should be able to pAss. After doing the paper, the computer is still on. So i played some games like minesweeper. Then at the last 5 mins, the teacher said, Please close all programs and close all the games. hAha.. sO fUnny. Okiez. After that, Jenny, Chinpei, Hannah, Edmund, Binghui, Shawn went to study at the Atrium and then we went to the Library.

So bOring. haha. And i cannot understand BMGT. Like my brain stuck already. sO i decided not to study. I continued on the construction of my blog skin. Then later, we went home.
6:58 PM


Friday, March 11, 2005
~Xprojects~
hAha... after projects and assignment felt so happy. Finally those stupid projects are gONE.. fOrevER... haha... erm.. fOr nOW... nExt seM still got projects for sure. So scary.
Hmm.. i think weekends have to go somewhere to relax a bit to credit myself. haha.. but i think a bit like.. maybe not. No mOney.. nO Play. Something like that reason or maybe others.
~fRidAy~
No sChool! sO hAppy. So i sleep till 1130am. hAha.. i think i sleep for more than 9 or 10 hours. So piG. hAiz.. Then i bathe and stuff and went out to meet Jenny, Chin Pei and Edmund. Highlight of the daY.. KBOX. Went there to sing and sing. bUt.. sing here and there all the same type of songs. hAha.. think need to wait quite long to learn some new songs and also wait for the mtv to be updated into the system. hMm.. hOpe can transform my house the KTV system to something like KBOX one. So many sOngs. Wonder where they get all the MTV. If can buy from them. Then i can sing at hOme. No transport Fee... No KBOX fee... No limited drinks rule... No
limited tibits... No everything. Opportunity cOst iS.. Disturb aLL mY nEighbours.
I where got sO bad. hEehx.. =P
After singing song, went to cafe carte to eat dinner. At first, we tot the bill is $104.50. Later we found out that the person read #906 as #908. #908 is something for 5 person and cost about $53. So the bill was like.. SO HIGH. Edmund went to change the thing and came back. After eating, Jenny and Chin pEi went to buy the cake there. And eAt. Then we gave the present to her. Chin pEi vEry hAppy to get that pRessent. =)
*~hAppiE biRthday and All e beSt tO cHin pEi~*
After that, We aLL went hOme. Then me and Edmund went to Toa Payoh interchange and talk. hAha.. erM.. talk and talk and ...... . haha.. then we went hOme..
-Teach me hOw to nOt dislike gUys on the whOle-
7:01 PM


Monday, March 07, 2005
hAha.. it seems to me that i had did many wrong things. all my SINS. Who can undo it and erase it? haha... there is a little regret. But 90% of it is all my SINFUL feeling. For just that moment of playfulness or something, i did something so wrong. So gulity. hAha... hOw i wiSh i didn't do anything like that. It is something like, i cannot forgive myself for doing this. How to make myself forget all this that had happened? How to let me be back to normal?
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??

There seem to be a barrier between me and many other people. Is this what i did also? Am i the one who build that barrier? All i know is my heart don't want the existence of that barrier. So, might be me who made the barrier but who continued to build it? I am always here waiting for people. No initiative but at least i am waiting. Not like others who leave without a trace. I am waiting and waiting and waiting.... for a better change... is this something good... oR is it just some fool standing and waiting there for nothing.
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??

Someone told me that males are all the same. Once they get something or what, they will slowly leave and disappear. I don't know if it works for every guy or not. From what i see, there are so many real life people who did that. Wonder if....
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??

Is everything repeating itself again? Everytime this just happens. I will never leave someone out there unless they want to be alone. You(s) are just letting all the good out and the bad in. Why you(s) must do that? I thought only someone as crazy as me will dO this kind of thing. hahaha. Whatever i do, Wherever, Whenever.... aLL of you stayed with me in my heart, i kEep all of you in my heart. All my friends. This also includes loneliness. Contradicting but true. She is just everywhere with me and the only one who is keeping me accompany at any situations.
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??

You know, not only you(s) have the ability to scare me, ME have the ability to scare myself. Need to visit.........

Why are you(s) floating away?
7:21 PM


Thursday, March 03, 2005
hAha... for the past few weeks and days, there are many things not said, not done. But all this are wrote down somewhere. Well, i don't really have gOod problem sOlving skills. Actually, all this that happen is not a problem. Is just misunderstanding and also miscommunication. Emotions in human overwhelmed and stuff like that. If this continues, i think many other things will happen. Erm, i hOpe everything will change for the better.

hMm... hUmans are so weird. When they do something, they got bad comments. They do the opposite, they also have bad cOmments. They are so difficult to please. sO we have to make things clear to them? hMm, if we make this clear, then again, they have bad comments. So what exactly they want?

All i want is to see your guys smiling and be happy again. So we can be together and be happy as well. So what is the difficulty? Nothing to say? Personality difference? Really hOpe that things will change for the better.

Wish that you(s) will smile once again.
11:11 PM


Tuesday, March 01, 2005
hAha.. bAck again.. now not at Blk 50. I am now at atrium dOing nothing and waiting for my CATS friends to come. Tml i will be having 2 project presentations. This is sO crazY. hAha... jUst wish all the best to myself.

After Sunday, i think everything went cooler for the moment. hahaha... So nOt really stress oN hw i think. hAha... Monday i went to school as usual. Went for FFA, and WCOM tutorial and also Macro Test.

Monday, haha... Hannah, Edmund and Binghui wore the same Fila T-shirt. hahaha.. they went to Queensway to buy it. haha... i think this is the only interesting thing on Monday. haha... and also, sOmeone said something to me. Honestly, sOmethings, i have to get used to it. Used to the things u told me. nOt only that, i have to get used to the dArkness i am in and many other things people give me... give doesn't have to be good things. ^-^.

After school and test, kOr kor bring me hOme. hAha... on the way to the carpark, kOr friend called. haha... is nOt any friend, iS..... i forgot how to spell the name. bUt he and kOr has been childhood friend till now. hAha... from the same kindergarden, to same primary schOol, same class, different sEc and now the sAme pOly. haha.. lOng winded. timE pAss sO quickly. haha... anYways, we wants to go to orchard. So kOr bring him to TPY and he took MRT to Orchard. At least better than taking bus or MRT from Clementi. So he went to Orchard to dO project and also look at a big statue in front of Far East Shopping Centre. Dun know what pRoject. haha.. coz he is also in Accountancy, year 2. Next time got problem ask hiM... givE aNS!!! hahaha...

After that, we reached hOme. I ate dinner and mUmmy ask me to accompany her to Plaza Singapura to pay biLLs. So i went. Pay the bills already and we went to lOok around. haha.. sO nv bUy anything. Oh yA, oN our way to the Car park, we sAw WORMS crawling on the ground. i think the first encounter was 2. The second was 1 or 2. hAha.. the funny thing is... the first encounter i juyst jumped a little. The second encounter, i keep AhHhhH... mUmmy Wo pAAAA.... And keep staring on the ground. Holding on to my mUmmy's arms. haha.. BEfore that a little, we avoid the worms by, jUmping around a little only la. hahaha... sO fUnny but sO Scary!!!

Later, after doing all the things, we went hOme. haha... and dO nothing.
3:01 PM


Haha... going to write a brief one. My battery now is very low. In school at bLk 50 just after BCA presentation which i have... nO cOmments on it.. -___-

So on Friday after school, i stayed till 5.30pm Because there is this mentoring meeting. More like a gathering actually. First free hour, i accompany Jenny, Hannah to do the BCA and Reflections. Later Teresa came back and did her reflections. Later, they went hOme and Teresa went to the library. I went to the Blk 50 field to watch the people play sOccer. hAha... then mimosa on the ground caught my eyes. I remember playing and touching them outside my house when i stay in Sennett Lane. So baD.. we cannot stay there liaoz. hahaha... will wOrk hArd to get bAck whAt is ouRs. hahhahaha... jk.. wiLL always remember there. Later, slack slack. Then Bing Hui have to go home himself coz Edmund want to wait for me. hahaha... bUt.. later i was informed that it will take more than 2 hrs. Played games during mentoring but i cannot remember who is who now. Oh.. and Edmund went home first coz staying there doing nth will be a waste of time. hEehx... Finish that mentoring thing, went home by taxi.

On Saturday, i dun have all the information for my project. So i think i cannot do anything also. Macro have to study but i didn;t do it on Saturday. On Saturday morning, i accompanied mUmmy to bring WS to tuition and we went shopping at United Square. Today, i ate a lot of things. I ate pancakes at hOme. Later, mUmmy and i ate half-boiled eggs and bRead. We bought some clothes from Espirt. haha.. sPell wrong or something i think. Later, we went home. Kor kOr and i went to fetch WS again, then we went to Serangoon Gardens to eat. Only at 2 pm. i EAT again. Saturday, i only do my ffa but full of mistakes. Waste my time. hAha... then did till 2.45am. Oh ya.. i got my iac project informations. So i can start already.

On Sunday, I did my iac project from morning. Trying to consolidate all the interviews. Later, my family and a uncle went out to eat. Eat came home already 1230pm. But i was very sleepy. So i went to bed till 130pm. haha.. Have to wake up to do the project again. I wrote the report till 4pm. Edmund called and told me that Mrs Pang said that we have to complete the Revision tutorial all 4 qns. hAha... i am sO dead. I wanted to start revising my macro for the monday test but i have no time. Opportunity cost. Also include me cannot go out to eat dinner. Lucky mUmmy will da bao for us. Us is, me, WS, and Kor.. and.. kOr gf. So i read macro once. Not thoroughly. haha.. then i went to do WCOM Hw. I did it till 2am. Then i went to sLp. So tiring and stress these days.
2:15 PM