Saturday, September 29, 2007
hAha.. and oh.. i'm sorry if i sound like a stupid dumb shit complaining about life when there are much more ppl who feels sorry for themselves in situation even worse than mine, or more people who are unfortunate and have better reasons to feel uncontented, or more people who are poorer and feels that.. erm.. u'll get my idea..
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Thankyou. =/
I think i need a erm.. someone to complain.. then can advice me.. and keep the secrets for me. haha.. think that this person has to be a professional then can solve my problems.
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Think i getting more and more emo. Nowadays the moodswing very very fast. hahah.. i can cry while doing my work at work. The work is too easy for me.. so it allows my mind to wonder around things and my mind keep talking to myself and complaining to myself. haha.. think i driving myself crazy.
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Just feel that i am always restricted and theres so many restrictions for me. I consider myself as a not a bad girl. I don't have a night life, no clubbing, no supper with friends, little outings with friends.. or sometimes none, low communication chances with human and a lot more. Why is there still so many restrictions? Don't know when will this end.. haha.. i already 20. but i have a mind of a 12yr old bah..
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I just hope that i can be treated more like a human being. haha.. not that my family will torture me. Just that the rules, the insults, the reprimandings, the way we communicate, our problems.. are all driving me to a corner.
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If theres something to describe me.. i think is a Broom.. Ugly looking broom. haha.. Brooms can't talk. Brooms dun make broom friends. Brooms are made of wood.. like my brain.. so dumb. Brooms are stiff. Brooms dun last long. Brooms are always being bullied, kicked around and scolded. Brooms look Ugly. Brooms are TOTALLY under the control of human beings. Noone cares about the Brooms. Brooms do dirty jobs. Brooms are smelly. Brooms are
always left behind. Brooms are the least impt thing at home. Usefulness 1/10.
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This is best description of myself.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
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Saturday, September 08, 2007
Last night, Lifang showed me the U Magazine and showed us Wei Siang's makeover in the magazine. haha... Its a very cool look. Wow.. he just look as good as when he haven had his shave. haha.. not that he got hair in the picture. I'm so amazed! Lifang said that she didnt even recognise Wei Siang in the magazine until my Aunty saw it. haha.. Really proud for WeiSiang. hehe.. and proud to be his cousin.
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Guess that no one knows how i feel about them. haiz.. the distance will be further.. and further..... it doesnt seem to matter to others.. but it really matter to me.. alot.... but i guess nothing is going to change all these.. becoz it is a part of life and has been predicted a long time ago. Prophesy is coming true..?
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Yeah~! Today went out with Edmund. Wee.. haha.. very long never talk so long. I met Sandy to return her the notes she lend me. After that, i went to Pasir Ris and waited for Edmund from 2.30pm to 3.30pm. haha... we took cab back to his house. Edmund's aunty just came back from HK and gave me a present. haha... they also treat me the Lao Po Bing and Almond Biscuit.. really very nice to eat lo! Sweet sweet but not too sweet. =D hAha.. she also bought 2 t-shirts from Edmund but Edmund dun like the blue one coz he thinks that it looks.. erm.. dun suit him. haha.. then he keep saying like for girls one. Then i say.. actually girl and boy also can wear leh.. But more for men.
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After that, Edmund and i went to Jurong Point. We ate Long John Silver... after that keep walking around. hehe.. Edmund bought comics.. i bought a pair of beach slippers and a jacket short-sleeve one. I think today broke record. hehe.. Edmund and i shopped for so long lo.. and is go into female apparel shops most of the time. hehe.. We went to coffee bean to rest and chat. I think also break record leh.. shopping record and talking record.
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Oh.. Today i looked through the Fox Catalog in the shop. Its only for browsing. haha.. get some inspirations but i forgot le. haha.. only remember one skirt and one long-sleeve.. but forgot how to match them. Haiz.. stm. The styles they present is good. But the catalog is disgusting lo.. boy kiss girl.. girl kiss boy.. girl kiss girl.. =___= *puke* Think if got chance, i would like to yan jiu the catalog again.. =P
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+_Happy day_+Sunday, September 02, 2007
hMm.. i remember that i had this flying dream twice when i slp. (been quite long since i had this dream) haha.. i think i quite like that dream. Because in that dream i can fly very high in the sky with the kite looking thing behind my back.. at least i got something to grip on in front. I can still remember the fear when i fly.. =P But i don't understand the dream because i keep flying to and fro from Singapore to another country to meet some ppl.. but hey.. i don't have to bring along my passport to travel around. So fang bian.. convenient.
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hehe.. But in the dream, is just me flying alone.. haha.. if got someone fly with me will be better bah. haha... Maybe because i stay at HDB.. in that dream also keep seeing HDB view and the sea view when i fly.. if got better view will also be nicer bah.. hahaha..
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If it were to happen in real life... i think i haven fly already cry or faint liaoz... scared of heights lo.. I don't even dare to take rollercoaster ride... how to learn how to fly.. hahaha.. XD
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So if you cant experience something in real life, dream about them and experience them in a different way, different dimension and in a much safer way too.. hahaha.. wish that i will have this dream again some night.. =)
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+_Flying without wings_+