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Sunday, August 17, 2008
Now is 1am in the morning of 17 August 2008! Happy Birthday to Pei Fen!!!
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haha... feeling lonely. haha... i just feel really weird. Maybe thats what people call jealous. I looked through some pictures online... Majority of the people looked happy and carefree, doing the things they like, having many people they like around them, going places where they want to go, loving the people who loves them back and so much more.
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I just feel so lucky for them.. all this nice people i know. haha... so ironic.. im listening to Goo Goo Dolls before its too late. Yup, i know i always tell myself its never too late. I wanna know how long can i lie to myself. i hope Before its too late... i can really do somethings to make people i love happy, carefree, and so much more. Make these people i love love me.
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I just hope that someone can give me the opportunity to love, opportunity to be courageous, opportunity to believe, opportunity to see good things, opportunity to feel and so much more. The mission to be in this world is to bring happiness to people i love, earn lots of money, and make good use of my time here.
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Since i am not a doctor or scientist, i cannot contribute to mankind. haha.. so i can only earn lots of money.. and i wanna earn a lot of money.
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+_aimless_+
12:50 AM


Tuesday, August 12, 2008
12 August 2008.
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hMm... feel kinda down. haha.. for no reason. Women just like to have mood swings for no good reason. Maybe i should go shop more. haha.. so sian... i feel so hopeless... Just dun know what i need.. but maybe i guess i know what is missing. I know i cant hold on any longer. Maybe i should buy the manicure set to divert my attention.
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just make me feel that i am too direct on my comments... it is like what i want.. how i feel.. i am saying it directly in your face... It just like ordering McDonalds.. Direct direct direct... So i dun have to beat around the bush and observe your reaction... coz i have been doing that too much and i am feeling tired...
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and what you said.. dun make me feel that the words are sincere. I know you will feel like "just what the hell does this women want from me", "those words ain't enough to light you up?", "then i got nothing else..". I dun know what what what! Maybe those stuff is not what i want.. all i want is.....
Dun really feel like we are close anymore... i love and hate it when we....... i hope it will stop.
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+_Maybe its just mood swing_+
12:38 AM