Wednesday, August 31, 2005
i Hate....
GUYS who are UNgentlemen
GUYs who dun care about people
GUYS who think that they are BIG
GUYS who are irresponsible
GUYS who are LATE till the girl is tired of waiting (few hours kind)
GUYS who are FLIRT
GUYS who think that they did a good job but they DIDN'T
GUYS who treat their GIRL like Slaves... Servants... Like NOTHING
GUYS who are proud of what their did WRONG
GUYS who have a SUper BIG MOUTH
GUYS who bLAh blAH bLah and more
This kind of guys...
Better watch out in future...
I will get you...
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P/S: hAha... please do not think the guy is you becoz if you never do wrong he will not be you.
hAha... i feel so tired... no mood.. no energy to study.... wanna cry liaoz... nO time to study also... Not enoUGh... hAiz.. i wanna cry cry... hMm... i dun know why i dun have enough time to study... mAybe i know... it is becoz of stupid many many projects... Finally finish BE project. hAiz... this project dun really need much time... but then most time is spend on NOTHING... becoz no one can give ppl decision quickly... Waste so much time... hAiz.... WASTED!!! And now i have muCH MUCH mucHHHH lesser time to study. Dun think i can finish also. hAiz....... i wanna faint. Now also dun feel like studying.
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Tonight i have no where to slp... jk. hAha... First, i got chased out of my own bedroom. So i sleep with my mother... Maybe no chased out from my own bedroom. Next, i got chased out to the guest room... becoz my younger brother sleeping with my mother. Now... i got chased out from the guestroom to my brothers' room. hMmm..... not fun okiez... haha... -_- Because my father came back from Malaysia and bring a Uncle back too. So he sleeping the guest room. -___-
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Where is my bed?
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hMm... think i going crazy liaoz... haiz... hope i will not go crazy... haiz... cannot understand some ppl's action... dun know why so irritating... see already feel like slapping only. hAhahaha... can see my craziness?
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i don't mind what she said or didi don't mind being unknowni don't mind all this Because i want you to be happyBecause you can be less unhappyBecause i want to do it for your sakeBecause i want to do it for her sakeBecause life should never be sad/unhappySo don't be sad/unhappyBecause unhappiness' life span is never longMonday, August 22, 2005
hAha... i read many ppl's entries... all want to return to secondary days... haha... but for me... i got no where to return to. Maybe when i am in kindergarden? Or maybe when i can play and play with my brothers... when i still can play nice with my younger brother and play rough with my elder brother and have FUn with my same age cousin or when my cousins dun bully me. hAhaha.... i dun know... all happen at different times... haiz... how can that ever happen.
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haha... i will look forward to the future. I think the most positive one is to hold on and cherish the present. hAha... i dun know. Maybe i still cannot understand the nice thing about cherishing the present. Maybe i know... but it is the past. Maybe i can feel it once more... just have to wait.
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Yesterday
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hAha... i met Edmund, Jenny then Karen for the biz etiquette project. hAha... took some pictures. We first visited GUESS. haha... in the mist of talking to Jenny, i saw a person's backview... so familiar. hAha... then when she turned, i was like SHOCKED and OVerwHelmed. haha... as in... OMG.. How can this hAppen.
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Anyway... she was Murni. Coz she and Rima are gOod and bestest friends. hAha... i cannot imagine what will happen if she is not working.. at least in the same company as Rima. hmm... she just want a change in environment i guessed. hAha... Murni told me that Rima don't want to friend her now. hEehx... aiyo... think will friend back one lahz. They so good together. =P hMm... but i was shock till like crazy lo. =P How can go Guess.. then how can be without Rima... good friend mahz.
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Okiez... anyway, we took a few pictures and i found that the jeans is very nICE to wEAR!!! But the pRice is $300 plus. OMG... =P cannot afford. hAha... took pictures. Then we went Zara... then we went somewhere... i cannot remember le. Oh.. think Taka or something... went to see a lot. got i-S... and a lot a lot. =P took some pictures... hMm... then we end it...
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Jenny and I went shoPping. hahaha... finally shOpping... but i still have no money. Then i can only aim to buy a formal top. If not i cannot buy anything. hAha... so we walked ard and saw many nice stuff.... G2000... Fareast... Osmose.... lalala... so many that we cannot name it. In the end, we bought a magazine... a G2000 top for Jenny, a blue osmose top for me... and we went to trim our eyebrows... =P
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So i went home by bUs... after that... then i went orchard again to meet Edmund by Bus... then after talking awhile... then i went to Isetan to cool down. hahaha.. the sir-con there very cold. I saw Yan Fen.. but i didnt approach her... then i went home by MRT. hAha... i thought i will want to go to Forever 21 to talk to them again. hEehx... but nvm lahz... i cannot talk also...
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haha... Then... Marvin say... how come nv wait for him then ask him what to wear... fashion consultant... =P Anyway, Jaq tot that i can work le... so tell Marvin then Marvin ask me to go work... hAha... blur lehz... i said... cannot.. coz exams coming and i am very stressed. hEehx... Jaq heard wrongly le lahz... =P Anyway... Simon help me to find formal.. but Forever21 formal... all no new one... then all old one... then all no size and too plain. *Please dun let marie see this.* =P Anyway... Forever21 is sending someone to Dubai for 2 months... hAha... dun know who will go. Oh yA... Nimfa and Madeline left coz their permit cannot use to do retail jobs. Nicole left... but i dun know why. I think Disa also left... also dun know why. Then... Winnie left.. think Dorren left with her.. coz they have to go to Uni. Simon is leaving becoz of his family business. hAiz... everyone leaving... so not fun. If Nimfa still there then good le. Nimfa so cute... Jenny also so cute... then.. so many ppl so cute there... =P erm... as in.. they are kind ppl... =)
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Today
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Today, i went to school very early and felt so restless and lonely. Coz i got nothing to do.. no laptop... addiction to my laptop... got mp3 but no money to buy batteries... homework.... tired and uncomfortable... hahaha... so i sat at the atrium. Later, i went to the library level 3... sat at the sofa and look at some papers... but i cannot understand them. Then... sleep there... Woke up and went to the internet cafe. Anyhow picked a computer to use. hAha... coz i am bored to crazy. So i anyhow surf. I went to friendster and someone by the name of INC... which is a engineering course's friendster a/c, didnt log out after using. hAha.. so i anyhow explore their a/c. hmm.. only have 20 ppl. heehx... should work harder.
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then i log out theirs... and log in mine which have nothing interesting. hAhaha... then i log out and anyhow surf again... surf till i sian le. Then i went to the atrium and rest again. Edmund came. Then when it is about time, we went to Block 53 and drink water... then i went up to the class room. haha... make up class is a disaster. hahaha... coz i still dun get it. =P Think ask ROOTS hairstylist to teach me better. The effect he did for me better lo. -___- okiez...
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After class, Edmund complained and dun want to go to class. Both of us are very very hungry. So we went to eat chicken rice... and also eat KFC... then VERy fUll... haha... then we walked ard... see see... haha.. then we went hOme..
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Thank you... =) i know you meant well.
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
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hAha... so tired... today i am feeling sO very tired. In the morning... woke up and i did what i promised my mother. Print all the work for WeiSong... then i print till very tired lo. Printer can work already then is print things for him not for me. -____- Then after printing things for him i print the notes that i dun have. I dun even know what notes i dun have. -_____- sO tired....
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hAha... this few days... i cannot see what ppl think is related to me in any way. As in... i know i am drifting away from a lot of people. So i start to miss the days when we are really toking. haha... i wonder if everyone will fit in well everywhere they are. but i dun know. Coz from what i see.... everyone will take the chance to say or tok about the person when they are not there.
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hMm... good friends and best friends... will not join the others unless they cannot take it already. This is what i tot. haha... as in... your good friend will stand for you. hMm... maybe i used to like this. Thats why i was always getting into trouble. hahaha... but now... as in i didnt stand or make a stand. I dun see a difference. Because even if i didnt join ppl... i am in it. hAhahahaha... lame.
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hMm... everytime i hear my name somewhere.. then i got a .. NOT peaceful feeling. As in... it is like i got into trouble again? hahaha.... haiz... i am really tired of all this stupid things.
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Tired of so maNy things... WHo understands... Reality is so tiriNg...
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*People who read this.**Please dun mind what i said.**Because this is only what i think.**And you are part of reality that cannot be changed.**There is no one i am refering to**Please dun get offended**Thank you for understanding me*
Thursday, August 18, 2005
hAha... finally... nO moRe presentations except for the last Business Etiquette one. hMm.. so tired already. hMm... really tired... nO mOney... all things are drained. No energry... no more brain cells... hAha... Think i screwed up for the FIT presentation. haha... i click the wrong slide and talk. hMm... like is slide A i talk B. =___= hAiz.... so horrible me. sO stressed up.
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Many mANY mAnY chapters of homework and modules i didnt catch up. hMm... how how... someone tell me how. i Cannot understand also. Dun know how to do.. .Stress...
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hMm... why everytime i see others and see myself... i am so lack of a lot of things. hAha... hAiz... my stupid character just have a stupid problem.
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Think need to see doctor to open up my brain to check got problem or not. =P
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eevnroy heav trhie gdoo fsrdine, btu nto me.
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hMm... dun ask me why i look so sad. hAha... i also dun know why. Maybe i am born sad. -___-
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
So stupid. The things that you expect happens... the things that is unexpected happens as well... so see.. what i gonna say... SIAo ARhz.... this is lame. hAiz.... i not some wonderwoman taking care of so many things... I cannot juggle so much stuff at once. Once i game over... i will be dead and down with depression. hMph.... how come no one is interested at all? As in this is the marks... this is the chance... why are ppl letting it go.
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hAiz... first.. i expected that we may need a plagiarisim form. Next thing i know is.... PeOPLE DID not dO the right thinGs. As in.... wa lAu... what the hell did you promised? Some people still save my day by doing the right stuff that i expect them to do. Like if you promise you will at least elaborate then you should. 2 ppl promised. 1 did... the other didnt..
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but then... if you promised something.. you better do it for your own good. So stop your BullShit "YaYaYa". What i can say is.... what you did is not at all clear. Depend on what thing... your own memory or understanding. hAiz... Also... another stupid thing lo. I sent everyone the newest and submited file for business law project before you all can do your slides. Still can got people use the old file.. the WRong ONE... to do the slides. What the hell lo........ Super prepared lo... -____-
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Partly my fault... coz i have nO time to check everyones' work for goodness sake. What you guys think i am? I really tired lo. siAO LO.... lame lehz... and ppl who have time cannot make themselves helpful by reading instructions and remind your own group members or FRieNDs on how to submit the work. See... this is our group. HAiz.... why can't ppl just think for others and give them a hand? Drowning with all the work.
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These Projects Are Truely Driving Me NuTS......
Sunday, August 14, 2005
hAha... so many projects and hw are due and all. Makes ppl want to go crazy. Or am i already crazy... haha..
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Lately, so tired... haha... but uncle give me chicken essence... but i didnt drink... coz i scared.. =___= But then he also give me dun know what tea... then Cindy make for me.. then i drink. No taste one... hAha... lucky it is not bitter. But then.. Mummy say... it is good for me... coz it is to let ppl have more energy? hAhaha... i cannot remember... but i know is not made in Singapore. Coz Mummy say one...
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Hmm.. Xiao Shu birthday.... haha... birthday.. haven marry... so old liaoz... Better find one girlfriend soon and bring her home so he can marry and give us hongbao for Chinese New Year. =D Then we can have HongbAo~~ See ppl need to think far.
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hAha.. so tired... hMm.. Xiao Shu go back China liaoz... do business till so far. hAha... who ask Singapore to be so difficult to do business. -___-
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hAiz.. i am crazy already... hMm... this blog is so short.... should make longer.. hAha.. so i will be crapping more now.
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hMmm... Fit project so scary... got so many things to do and write. So unsure of the work we have done. The worst thing i ever felt was... to do the project till AM in the morning and few days later found out that it is not submitted. Only in hard copy does not count. No Plagarisim form handed in in hard copy as well. EVEn more dun need to MARk.,... see i will go crazy or not. And of coz i almost did. hAhaha... tolerance... is good. All the nonsense i get... dun even know how to hand in project. I was almost scared to death. Ms Chew want me to find Mr.Paul Tan number myself. This is acceptable. But Mr.Paul Tan dun answer the call... make me More like a crazy Woman.
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How does a little girl relieve stress.... cry.. If she cannot cry in front of ppl... then dun cry... keep it inside. Cannot deny that music is really important in our lives. Lucky the songs i got recently are quite happy and loving kind of songs... hAha... if not i will feel more like crying. -___- Then blasting of music is fun. Done it b4 but then doing it again is also fun. Will not be tired of making myself deaf. hAhaha...
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My Brothers... hMm... as usual.. at home i cannot stop screaming at my younger brother and always use a "i wanna kill you" tone. hAhahaha.. then i will always got reprimanded by my mother. hAhaha... "Lishan!! You better talk to your brother nicely. Why you using that tone? You know you shouldnt" Blah blah blAH.... Ya i know he got no bad intentions sometimes... hAhaha... But then... i dun know why. hMm... maybe i can feel the biasness in the family? hAhaha.... they will never understand me.
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My elder brother... hMm... i talk abit only... then he scold me. hAha.. maybe my tone is bad again. Then i like have to talk loudly at home. Then ppl can hear me. hAha... coz the TV volume is too loud. I wonder why must they on the volume so loud when the house is so nOT bIG. LOOK at the area PLease.... on so loud... then i talk so XIn KU... then you all say i scolding him. WHEre gOT?!?!?!?! i didnt. i was angry coz the volume is loud. hAiz.... think i need to be more gentle in talking to ppl.
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Business Law project. hAha... later we are going to meet Shimin and discuss some stuff about the project. Btw... msg for the ppl doing all the project slides... You dO the sLIDes... You PresenT the sLides... so look at your slides and ask yourself how you are going to do it.
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hAhaha... the music i on in the atrium is so lOud.. =P Sunday sch is so quiet? but got quite a lot of ppl.
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hMm... Business etiquette. hAha.. can say we finish the project already. hAhaha... fun.. good to finish.. tml will be complete DONE once and for all~~~!!!*** So hAppy...
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Still got what happen. hMm.. OH yA... i just bought a white top and a erm.. beige pants for formal wear. hAhah.. the white top.. erm... the front part got wavey pattern.. as in the cloth.. not the drawings or prints. =P But i think i look alright in it. =P BHB....
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So many things not done and i am still here. hAhahaha.... so happy... NOT so happy... i am only beinging sacastic.. to myself. hAhaha.... i think i cannot take anymore nonsense. hAha... if i continue to do it... i will be more mAD!!!! So you ppl better stop driving me to the wall....
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i.am.no.worth.it...
When will you learn your stupid IQ??? Why are you saying that u understand this and feel deeply for this but you are not doing anything right? Is like... You!!! Stop your stupiD crAp and wake up... Life is not a theory... it is Practical.. SO... Stop it.. u understand shit... you are not doing the right things and reacting the right way... Stupid....
Friday, August 12, 2005
hAha... again i am blogging.. hEehx... speaking of dying... hMm.. yesterday, i almost died on the spot at home. It is true...
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haha... my charger spoiled as in the muliti-purpose plug broke and leaving the back part of the plug in the wall. So i made few attempts to took it out. The first time it happened last night, i remembered to off the powerpoint. After i fixed it, i place it back and let it do its job.
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haha... the second time it happened, i forgot to off the powerpoint. hMm.. my brother was watching tv on the sofa.. can say near beside me but not really. So i removed the plug without offing it. Few moments later, i felt something travelling from my fingers to my shoulder for my left hand. Of coz i was shocked and made some funny noise. My brother ask me what happen and i told him that i got eletricity shock.... then he keep scolding me. hahaha... i think my brother always got scared by me one. -___- [EG.Crossing the roads.]
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hMm... the feeling was like that leg massager... got some electricity feel travelling from your toes to your leg... hMm... but it is not fun. So DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME!!! hAha... anyway... if my hands are wet... i think i am dead already. =D
yEs... hAhaha... Mr. Paul Tan finally answered my calls. Lucky.. i didnt give up. haha.. Anyway.. that was the last call i was going to make. hMm... i still got one more thing to do. That is to print the plagirisum form and hand it in to Ms Tijoe. =D finnaally... it is really done and not missed. > v < V
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sO lucky. =D sO hAppy. =D sO gOod. =D sO niCe.=D nOt failing.=D
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hAha... i am sO hAppy~~!!!!!!!! Thank You Mr. PAul Tan.. though he sound so hmm.. a bit can say more fierce.. or man.. =P
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nOw the online hws and presentations are pilling up. Feel like going crazy. hAha.. i got a real big feeling that the FIT i submitted is wrOng.. heehx.. the answer are bad. hAha...
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would you guys look at yourself. you dun care at all... not caring about this and that. hAha... the worse thing is that you guys can't even care or help someone who is going crazy... even as a friend..
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Peeping Tom... stop thinking who i am talking about.
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Maybe not caring about someone is right... coz she is someone who cannot let ppl to be cared about.
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At least care about what you need to care about... for your own advantage.
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hAhaha... sO hAppy... i am not going to die like what Ms Chew said.. WaHhaAhaAhahaHAhahAhahAhHa...
hAha... i dun have to look at the mirror and i already know that i look super not nice at this moment. Sad... Sad to be so stupid. Even simple submittion also dun know. hAiz... we didnt submit the soft copy... not i cannot contact Paul Tan... coz he is the in-charge.. Wonder if anything will happen. Ms Chew said that if we didnt hand in... we will be dead. Now is want to cry cannot cry.... dun make me hate you...
Sunday, August 07, 2005
hAha... i thought i lost interest on Piano. hMm... the reason i suddenly dislike Piano is:
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Stressed by Piano
Felt just like Volleyball
Waste time "own thinking coz cannot play properly"
Stressed by family
Stressed by O'levels
Stressed by not doing well
Dependant on people
No initiative
Lazy
Playing Piano is a HOmewOrk to me
No urge to play
No feelings to play
Cannot express using piano
Not a fast learner
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haha... maybe i never dislike piano. More reasons caused me to stop piano. hAha... i really wonder how my grade 3 get quite good... eh.. for the songs only. -__-
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However, Thanks to Edmund... think i will try to get back my interest? hahaha... like.. i like to play the piano.. but i have to play it well. hMm... as in will try to learn piano anyway... by myself? heehx... think i will not really suceed in this. -____- i am very lazy.
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Yesterday, i watched the Wedding Crasher with Edmund. hahaha... quite a funny show.. coz the whole family of the girl except the girl have BIG bRAin ProblEm..!!! hahaha... really weird. heehx...
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After watching the movie, we went to carrefour. Then we discovered a very interesting keyboard.. Or is Many interesting keyboard. hahaha... then Edmund and i played the piano. haha.. then i cannot remember how to play any songs. Actually i felt quite disappointed with myself. Learn piano so long still so poor. -____- haha.. anyway, one of the features of the keyboard is to teach us how to play songs and there are many songs to choose from.
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We played the keyboard till Carrefour close for the day. haha... then i got scolded by Mummy... coz i went home quite late. =P
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
hAha... its getting harder to breathe..... 就快要崩溃了... hMm.. what is the point of staying awake from death. I cannot find the reason. I need a direction.
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Can anyone tell me... how much i worth? haha... $O? so bOred
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You cant tell... haha... so i only worth so much time.. so short... so rush.. so little... poor girl.
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hAha... today i ate ice cream. The ice cream is niCe.. but i was eating it like trying to finish it as soon as possible. It was like... cold but i didnt care. Just wanted to finish it quickly. I think this is the faster record of me eating that ice cream. hMm...
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hAha... still got many projects on the way.. or they are at the doorstep already.
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Tired like crazy... stressed like crazy... looking at ppl who dun bother to care about anything... feeling very breathless lately... i have no patience... ppl who listened/talk to me, dun listen/talk to me anymore...