Tuesday, May 31, 2005
hAha... so bOring. I am starting to dislike poly life. hAha... stupid me feel like working and not studying already. Not becoz of stress. hAha.. maybe a bit. But that is not important. hMm... how i wish..... then... maybe i can..... then.. i might be happier..... haha... who knows what i am thinking? I will not allow myself to stop schooling.
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Not in a good mood.... the whole day i was thinking of people i hate and how i wish i can see them again and Get bACk at them. hAha... evil grin. But i know i am not that erm... stupid to do stupid things to get back at them. Revenge is not the real solution. It is not worth it for making my own effort to do it to them. HAha! Waste my energy.
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Lecture was alright. But i still cannot understand what is what. hAiz... Tutorial is bad. hAha.. they way the teacher speak is making me more lethergic. How to spell? =P hAha... he look big. =PpPp. hMm... i dun know how to say.... dun really understand his explanation. hMm.. not becoz of his slang. Erm... somehow felt that he only explained things halfway. hAha.. or i need more then i can understand. Retarded mahz...
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hAha... after school went AMK. hMm.. Winnie aunty asked me to help to give out 2000 of the leaflet this week. hAha.. i dun know lo. But i agreed to it. So i better do it. If not i will get killed by them. hAha... haiz... wasting my time.
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Haven do any Hw. SiAn. hAha. i dun know how to do bahz... so bOring. There is so many things that i cannot see the reasons behind it. hAha... all i know is that it is not within my control. So whatever ppl act or feel i cannot change. And i better stay further and further away from them.
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Oh yA... erm... now i still dun know which group i am in for my BLaw. So bLur. hAha... i was just letting ppl decide for me. hAha.. this kind is alright. Many other things i have to learn how to control them myself and fate will be in my hands instead of others.
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Ooh ya... i got big STM problem. hAha.. these days i cannot remember if i eat anything already or not. hAha.. like yesterday. Today also. I forgot that i ate noodles at AMK and told my maid i haven eat anything. hAhaha... funny. now then i remember. hAiz.... maybe i am just thinking about too much things.
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+___ Standing alone out here ___+
Sunday, May 29, 2005
~Last Day at Forever 21~
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hAHa... today is quite a fun day. Day started... i wasd the earliest part timer.. haha.. then Levin and Marvin ask.. why u come so early.. then i '...' nothing to say. hMm.. but actually i want to buy breadtalk to eat... but wasnt open yet. So i went in to work. hAha.. when i got nothing to do then i keep looking at Marvin... when i was putting the duster back. Then he get what i mean already. Coz i got SiAn written all over my face. Then he said... See if Levin hang all the new stocks already or not.. then i went to see and help to do.
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Do till halfway, Simon come and scare ppl with his high pitch voice again. hAha.. he always did it on purpose one. He said Marvin ask us to go to the toilet to fill water.... wipe the tables. hMm.. then we went. Talked about hp... haha.. when we pass by Nokia shop. hMm... he want the... erm.. hp look like a stick one. -__- hOw to use... We went back to the shop. Wipe the tables. I think use that piece of cloth no use one lo. Also so dirty. Wipe the table still the same one. -___- Same type when i was in Topshop. Simon took the cleaner's erm... wipe mirror thingy and help them with their job. hAha.. Funny lo. No extra pay. I want to use he dun let me. So bAD!
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hMm.. later... i did the WhiteTable. Keep folding the sweaters. So bOred. Then my face will like... not happy lo. hAha.. see sweaters till i scared. Or fold clothes... till i wanna faint. Then i talk to customers... using the want to kill them tone. hAha.. not really lahz. Coz today last day. Do whatever they like lo. Marvin showed me Levin's gf. hEeh... sO cute and pretty lo.
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hAha... think after she go off not long... dun know. We saw Levin serving a lady customer. Tall and Pretty!! Then we started to gossip again. hAha... Levin is TK.. Ti Kou.. how to spell. Anyway it meant someone who have eyes only for pretty girls. =D Marvin told Levin what we talked about then Levin very Ji Dong. hAha... agitated already. Keep saying me. -__- like.. Huh... u said me like this??? I treat u very good u know... How can like that??? Hor... in your heart i am this kind of person arhz... Hmph so bad!!! hAhaha.... sO fUnny lo his reaction. He even want to use the hanger to hit my butt. Abuse me!!!
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Later, i went break with Madaline. So bored lo. hAha.... i dun know lahz.. is i got problem bahz... cannot tok to her. But she is a quite a endu person. hMm... anyway... i ate ToriQ Bento. Later, i went back. Sali asked me if i can extend my time to 8pm. I called Mummy and asked. Can. So i stayed till 8pm today. oH.. this was before break. Levin went off early that day. hAha.. coz came early. Marvin came early too but didnt go yet.
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Later, before Marvin went off... he ask me if i reserve anything... like that t-shirt i wanted. hAha.. then i told him i didnt reserve. Then i said i only reserve the skirt. hMm... we went to find the tshirt then just nice a customer holding it and went to try. hAha.... so i continued to work. Marvin really go and buy the skirt for me!!!!! So good lehz. haha.. then i see already keep.. 'WAaaAaa...-ing" haha... really lox.. shocking. I think need to get something back for him also. Last time at Topshop he bought me at Cap before i go. But then i didnt take it with me. Think the other manager re-sell it to ppl. Idiot lo. I like that cap alot.. i rather re-buy it myself than re-selling it to other ppl. Anyway.... They so good to me... =D Mariyana bought me a coin purse. hAha... coz this morning i wanted to reserve it. Then she say... so expensive. A coin purse only cost so much.. pasar malam cheaper. hAha... so i put back. She also said... buy already no coins to put in. =P
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hMm... think i will get Mariyana a pair of earrings. hEehx.. then Marvin.. think find a nice t-shirt for him lo. Then maybe buy chocolate for the whole shop to share. That is if i got the money and time to buy them and visit them.
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Then Jenny called me a liar. hEehx.. coz i told her maybe next week coming back to work. hAha.. then when i ask Marvin can or not. Marvin called me a Liar... haha... and ask me to pay for the skirt. So bAd. kiCk him lo. Ppl got good intention to help one okiez.... hEehx...
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hMm... Sali so excited to see that coin purse on display then he remembered... no sensor tag.. hAha.. that response super funny lo. hMm.. anyway.. my last customer bought a lot of things. hAha.. coz she going overseas. But then she buy things that are on sale one. hEehx... she also so cute. But then... she keep messing up the table of sweaters. So ke wu. =P hAha... before i go off.. i gave Nimfa my number. hAha.. then hug her then go. =D
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Then after work i went to collect money from Sunil. hAha... he so bad one. Keep making mistakes. Dun want to give me money one. So bAd!!! Kick him then he know. I joined my family for dinner at Pariss... located at 5th level of Taka. Is buffet... then i eat too fast... so quicker to feel full. hAha... think we lost the battle... =P Plus the per person so expensive.
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Later, we ate finish. hAha... then went hOme. So tired... and fUll... haha... hAppy Day anyway.
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Now... name all my frens... Marvin.. Marie.. Sali.. Moe.. Levin.. Jac.. Yati.. Jess.. Nicole.. Mariyana... Jessica... Simon... Jenny... Disa.. Doreen.. Winnie... Nimfa... Madaline... Lex.. Samuel... Bobby... hMm... still got ppl?? =P cannot remember... but i think no more le. =D
+___ Thank you all my Forever21 Friends!!!!! ___+
Saturday, May 28, 2005
~Thursday~
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hAha... finally!!! Ming passed me the Jolin cd and i passed him the money. But i didn't keep the cd. Coz i want him to ask his fren to help me go to her autograph session. Before slping... sang a couple of songs. hEeh... coz kOr kor playing music in his room and i slept in his room so... like this lo.
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~Friday~
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What can i say. hAha... the first hour of the day i was already being... erm... how to say. Reminded about things i don't want to be reminded. Mistakes. Weakness. I hate it all. hAha... Why do you have to throw it at me again? How am i suppose to regain my strength like this? hAha... pointing out my mistakes..... i don't have a solution. Can't you understand and see how helpless am i? I also want to know what to do and hOW! So stop stop stop stop stOp.. telling me that you seen this in me and i don't know. I KnEw it all along. I just haven seen the right track.
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hAha... so my whole day was very down. Seeing anyones' face that will remind me of more bad things.... will just make me feel worse... and worst. nO ONe... just looking at myself makes me sick sometimes. I am worried on the way ppl look at me.... Now not only that... or less of that. I Don't like that way i am Looking at myself. You will not understand. I am pressurised. hAha... everytime i cannot live p to ppl's expectations... things like this will happen. Now... not only ppl's expectations.... Mine tOO!!! BAD!!!!!
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It was so down... that everything is going to change its colour to Grey. My confidence.... down down down down down today. hAha... courage too... i cannot face anyone i realised. hAiz.... am i just too stupid or what. I just really hope... many things are not like this now. You did this and tell me those for my own good i know. hAha... but....... nothing. How i wish i can change completely overnight and be happy.
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No one made me unhappy. It was just ME making myself feel more confused and bad. hAha... i couldnt care about anything. I am just not happy becoz the weakness is true.
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Sorry to those if my attitude BUgs you.
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Secretly i X*X*X*X... no one knew...
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Today, after school, i went to play pool with Edmund. hAha... my pool is bad lo. Then i went for work. Time passed so quickly. hahaha.. coz i am only working for few hours. Today got my last week pay. haha... hAppy... erm... not so.. haha... Money didn't make me happy today. =P
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oOohnNoooo... haha... i saw A NEw tOp!!!! Just a tshirt. NIcE... hEehheee... hOw.. tell me hOw?!?! i want to bUy!!!!!! =P cannot cannot... must control.. =D Spend too much le.. Red light is on not the green light hOr.... >.<
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+___X*X*X*X___+
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
hAha... today is the 2nd day of school. Since the start of of school then i got the getting older feeling. hAhaha... no more being freshies.. =P
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Anyway.... Business Law is making me feel so stupid. hAha... i cannot understand it. I want to use this chance to learn Law... and sue ppl till they go mAD~! hAhaha... eviL~ Joking only... hMm... IFA.... haiz... i also cannot understand. hahaha... then i cannot remember how to do it also. Sian. Everything also dun know how to do... How to live up to my parents expectations. This semester... hair will turn white. hAhaha... jk
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hAha... and i just realised.. Jenny from forever 21 only gave me... 8 out of 12 songs for Avril Lavigne. *Sob soB* haha.. but it is gOod enough to make me happy listening to her songs. hEehx... the rest in the cd are from Simple Plan - No Pads, No Helmets, Just Balls. hAha.. the title already made me laugh.. -___- The songs are nice anyway. hMm.. i think she also added some songs from Me against the world. hEehx... anything bahz. Think on Friday i will ask her again. hAhaha.. if not i have to search for the songs myself. So bOring.
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hahaha... losing grip. i meant... is so unatural to do so many things. This is not my attitude or whatever. hAha.. losing myself. Not the extreme. hAha... i dun know how to explain. The feeling is like a big gap i dun like. hAha... the gap caused by what? hAha... coz of my fear. Afraid to offend ppl. hAha... also because of this i am quite an introvent. I dun understand how i live my life when i was in Primary school. hEehx.. Must be because i am more daring or what. Dun care whatever... what to fight.. come on and put a good fight with me. But now i am not mahz... =P more gentle... XD
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No matter what i do... it is in me. hAha... i just hope to be the a bit more daring me. So difficult. How i wish some things in Secondary school didn't happen at all. All the confidence is driven away during that period of time. How to get them back... the things i lost. hAha... learn everything and install everything again arhz. Difficult worx. hAhaha... i need someone to lead me out of that little room that i locked myself in... Of coz is step by step!!!
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hAha... i tried to talk... but no sound and mind is blank. hAha... Disa asked b4.. how come u so quiet.. hahahaha... everyone will sure ask me this qns.. =P
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hOw i wish i can be cheerful like Disa... the real one.. and Witty like Marvin... Serious like Marie... Cute like Mariyana... Happy like Nimfa... Also cute like Doreen... Winnie.. hMmm.. i dun know.. heehx.. coz she also so quiet. a bit Funny like Levin... Like to scare ppl like Simon.. =P Observent like Jacylen... Cute again like Yati... and a lot lahz... heehx... but ultimately... i will still be myself... coz i am me...
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I need this and that... I guess i have this... but not that. But everyone tot that is i have this only... i can stay alive... but i also need that. It is not what u all think.
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+___ Lead me out of this little room ___+
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Today... we celebrated JiaYi Birthday. haha... hmmm...
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~hAppy birtHdAY Jia Yi~
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First we went to Cine and wanted to eat Pastamania... then in the end we ended up at Swensen. hAha.. before this we were at Heeren. The turtle toy so cute!!! I shared food with ChinPei. haha... actually not hungry one. Then look at Suhana, Jia Yi, Yahui and Eugene eat... then felt more and more hungry. But then... still dun feel like eating much also lahz... Coz i think i already getting fatter during the holidays.. hEehx. Hmm.. after eating, we went walking around shopping centres. haha... see a lot of nice things. But now cannot spend. =/ hEehx... not because waiting for GSS or what la. hAha... is because.. i already spend tOooOoo mUch.
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hMm... then later... we went shopping. at 3pm plus, Edmund came. hAha... so we continued shopping a while. After that... Edmund like... bored le so i went off with him. hAha... coz i dun want to shop le. If continue to see somemore... i will uH oOh... sure spend money again one. =/
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So we went to Bishan. Intially is want to watch movie. Then we start to walk around again!!! i think i Must stop spending money already. hAiz... still got so many things i like and want to buy. But cannot buy le. If not.... i will be extremely Broke. heehx.... start saving already.
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We walked around and saw a Converse bag. Like quite Nice. =D I wAnt tO bUY!!!! So contradicting from the previous paragraph. But anyway... didn't buy. Because i need time to consider.. =P Later, we went back hOme.
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hAha... Quiet is nice.. also bad. I Dun know. hAha... i dun want to care. One of the things i don't want to face. Though i miss the Noise we made. Think all can be kept as memories? haha... who knows the fear that is staying with me....
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+___ Memories without Me ___+
Monday, May 23, 2005
hAha... today i work morning.. now my brother asked... why u need to put haha all those. so stupid lo. -___- okiez lo... next time dun put... Now he commented.. Broken English. -____- Okiez... next time better not let me hear him speak broken english or else.... jk.
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hMm... today the Boss coming. hAha.. have to put a little bit of make up. I only put lip gloss. =P hMm... so boring. Marie gave a briefing this morning. haha... everyday also have anyway. hMm.. nothing really happened today. Jenny came and get her bag with her sister. hAha... after Jenny left for a while... Zhong Qiang came. -___- This is the 2nd time he come. This time with the gf. The first time is came looking for the gf. hAha... this time is different. I was at the opposite side of the same table talking to my friend and i said. See the guy in front is the xiao hua xiao chao one. Then Doreen said Really till very loud and talk about it also. hAha.. think ZQ hmm... feel shy arh.. then walk out of the shop with the gf. =P
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Later... nothing much happened. Jenny sister came with her bf and shopped around. haha.. sian lo... i think by that time the Boss arrived and all. hAha.. i heard that his eyes is more sharper than Sunil's eyes. Sigh..... have to be careful like that. -___- if not sure complain about us one. -___-
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Few days ago... hMm... i think is Sunday... Jenny from F.21 burnt for me Avril cd and Simple plan 2nd last album. hAha... the disc name is very funny. hMm... before this she also burnt for me Simple plan latest and Sum41. haha... sO gOod. Then she let me bring home her Yellowcard cd. hAiz... but cannot burn. =P haha... dont know how to get my hands on all the songs. =P
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Today is the last day of holiday. hAha.. excited for school reopening.. but now i have to face the homeworks again... and all... haiz... haha.. anyway... hope for the best in life.
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JJ songs so very niCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cannot stop listening.. heehx... so niCe...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
McFly - All About You
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[Danny:]It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you, baby
([Tom:] It's all about you)
It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you
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[Tom:]
Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to,Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'
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[Danny:]
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do. Dancing on the kitchen tops, it's all about you.Yeah...[Solo]
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[Danny & Tom:]
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.Dancing on the kitchen tops,Yes you make my life worthwhile,So I told you with a smile...It's all about you.
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[Danny:]It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you, baby
([Tom:] It's all about you)
It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you
hAha... last mintues changed off with Doreen. hMm... But the Marvin cannot remember.. =P Think he only remember Doreen Sat off... then i off.. dun know when. Before i go home today, Marvin said tomorrow come at 8am. hAha... at first i was quite confused. Then i thought he was joking. Then i asked him. HAha... then he realised that tml is my off. Anyway, tml i will be working at 8 to 6.. WwoooOoooo hOooo.. Oooohh yEeaaahh..... =D Earn more money. =D =D =D means i will be working for 9 hours.. WwwoOooo hHhhhoOOooo... =D =D =D
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hMm... coz got more money mahz... =D =D =D
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I think Madeline will get into big trouble. hMm... that time having break with her.. she told me her problems about the house. I also dun understand what happen. But then, i think what her cousins trying to do is... nothing good. So maybe she might be moving out. Then these days she couldnt come. Mon Tues Wed didnt come. hMm... Then she did something bad too... so sort of putting words into ppl's mouth. hAha... i think she dun have thaat intention. Just... misunderstanding bahz. hOpe... erm.... nothing bad will happen anywayzz...
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hAha... Today work... hMmm... bOring lo.. but i think time past faster already. haha... hMm... i dun know... also fun lo. Ooh Moe did VM.. i think Lex sure will have headache again one... hAhaha.. cannot find what is where and where is what? Not only Lex... think everyone will... including me. =P
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Sian arhz....
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+___ Believe and there it is.... if u dont it's gone ___+
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
hAha... McFly-All About You is a wonderful wonderful wonderful. hAha... only listened to less than 20 sec of it i loVed it so vEry much. hAha... hMm.. Yati let me listen to the chrous during break using her hp. hAha... sO niCe.
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Today i switched off with Doreen.. Sat i will be working morning.. Thursday will be my off. hAha... coz she got some college things to do. hMm.. so i will be kind and let her.. =P haha.. jk But Sat... i will be celebrating my younger brother's birthday though is 1 day after his birthday. hAve to find something that he needs...
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hAha... so siAn... hMm... sO bOring... i keep repeating McFly - All About You. So niCe. Song so nice... listening... but i am doing something that is so opposite...
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Good Morning everyone...
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I woke up late today. haha... i remembered Mummy waking me up so that we can go JB together to do things. Then i cannot wake up. The first thing i said when i woke up is.. Mummy. hahaha... then no one can hear me. Then i shouted... Where is Mummy? Cindy said that she went out already. Go JB... without me. haha... coz i cannot wake up. AhHhhh... i want to go... sleep in the car. =P erm.. i dun know. I just want to go but couldnt wake up. Later, i called Mummy and asked where is she. She said already in JB and then she ask me to look after the house now lo. hAha... Now i alone at hOme. I dUn like it. haha... but nvm. I got my JackJack to accompany me. =D
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Keep listening to WangLeeHom. Bu Yao Hai Pa. hahaha.... coz the song is sO vEry niCe. haha... then also telling me dont be scared.. to be alone in this world. hAha.. yA.. i got my JackJack. =D
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The tune... is also erm... niCe.. but slow and making me sleepy again. Think i getting sick again. haha... got nose block... maybe later will be gone. haha...
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Think these days... keep doing sales. hAha.. till i dream of myself selling clothes too. Siao... and the position when i sleep... nowadays very funny and weird. Last time i can control. Now cannot. hahaha... i will... erm.. hAnds all up and... like... erm.. surrender like that. Then i will not sleep on the pillow... haha... coz i will sleep at the lower part of the bed. hAhahaha... what kind of position lo. So piG... aRhhHhh.... Transforming into a piGpIGpiGpiGpiGpiGpiG... heehx... erm... hope i can really sleep properly already. So uGLy sleeping position. hahaha.. lucky never kick anyone... =P
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I remember last time. Me sleeping with Wendy. haha... on one queen size bed. haha.... erm... is not good to sleep with her. Wonder if she changed already or not. In the middle of the night... she kick me at my face lo. -____- i was sO angry okiez... then i push her away. Then i go back to sleep. So bAd...... i dun want to sleep with her anymore. hMPh....... so it was arranged. I sleep on a single bed. Cindy slept with Wendy the next day. hMm... that was like a few years back. When we just shifted to Petain Rd.. lavendar. haha...
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hAha... now i got a younger brother that finished exams... But still got more coming... because this year is PSLE year. And... i want to see his BCG. MuhAhahaha.... then i will smack his one.. jk i know is pain. hahaha...
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I remember... Pri6 after BCG.. there is an area for us to rest and cry.. hahahaha... coz i remember myself crying and siting there... with erm.. Stanley? Did he cry too? =P or someone else. hahaha.... sorry arhz... like embarassing someone.. =P Then after that, we all played Hopscrotch.. how to spell... erm.. yA. I remember got a lot of ppl playing together.. Got SiewLoo, FengYang, me, kenneth, Leonard, Siras, Syahida, erm.... and a lot together... but cannot remember le bahz. hAha... hAppy.. i want to play hopscrotch again!!!
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hMm... now throat not so pain. but nose got problem. Like got runny nose.. i think so. hahaha...
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+___OffDay___+
Friday, May 13, 2005
hAha... my waiting status is always on.
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So vEry bOring. hAha.. tml got the chance to earn more money. Giving out leaflet at Suntec. But it is my Off.. and.. my mother want me to accompany her in the morning. Haha... so i turned it down. nvm lox... haha... think at this time also not much money to earn.
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hMm... today Levin showed me a new top. NiCe... but is so low. hAha.. then i have no confidence to wear lo. Levin say.... drink more milk.. then i there... now like a bit no use hOr. hAha... then he started his.. erm... " i know china got a type of surgey... " then i just... eHh... then walk off. -__- hAha... i still reserved it. =P See first. but can predict lo. Buy le sure dun wear. -__-
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So boring today. hAha.. is a 13 Friday. Lucky i am still safe and sound. =P I remember when i was Primary 6, almost all the 13 Friday, i got problem. Problem with the Skirt. Either the zip spoil... or the skirt clip spoil. -___- Lucky now no. This morning Cindy said... Later your jeans drop. Didn't happen.... heeh..
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Today i went to Moshi Moshi. First intention was to look only. haha.. then i need a necklace. So i boought one... without pendent. I don't need a pendent so also nv buy. haha... i wore it with my bai bai thing b4 work. Boast my luck. =P
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During break at 3pm. hAha... i go for break alone. hahaha... sO bOring. But go break alone also fun. hAha... went to Scotts food court to eat. haha.. So Boring... food bOring... After eating, i went to TopShop to see see.. hahaha.. and see Murni.. =D hAha... then we talk talk.. a bit fast.. coz she still working mahz.. later she get scolding then i gulity.. haha.. hMm... she told me at one time... after Rima give birth for a period of time... she had to go to ICU... coz of her high Blood pressure. So pOor thing. But Murni said the reason was because she smoke too much when she is pregnent. haha.. spell wrongly. Hmm... but then.. sound very scary. Murni said that she had tubes connecting ard and many ppl cried. Erm... really sound bad.. Glad that she is alright now.
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hMm... Heehx.. hAppy that ChinPei came to see me in the afternoon. hahaha... that was b4 break. ThAnk You girL.. =D
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After work... i felt that... something... but that something... didn't happen. hAha... imagination is strong. hAha... Feeling strong too. But is not real. Got any idea how that feels? When what you think is real but is not... like false hOpe. Just like when a customer say want to buy.. but then later... say.. i think no... and throw it back to you and just walk off. hAhaha... is no big deal anyway.
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you know that feeling of waiting... and waiting.. and waiting waiting waiting.. hahaha... i am think i am becoming impatient. haha... maybe i should try playing my piano again. Mummy says... playing piano can help with one's patiences... think i should..
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haha... i dun understand... what makes you think when u dun answer... is not lying to me... You are hiding from me. haha... just like... asking that customer... You going to buy it? then she say... oh.. you see the other piece on the wall? Can help me get? hahaha... change subject and made me forgot the first qns. Smart customer. hahaha...
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+___ Waiting ___+
Thursday, May 12, 2005
hAha... today will not be about today. hMm... i started to listen to some songs. Started to miss those days. Really good friends... and all. hAha... now is alright only. hAha... hOpe we can do the same thing once again. But i know the hweeling is not there.. hAhaha... i meant feeling.. =P
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hMm... just a few simple songs can make me think so much to the past. haha.. not only the past at that point... more further past... pAstpastpAsT. hAha... all is past... hOpe i can don't cling on it too much.
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i just want to say.... I REaLLy MISs ThOse DayS A lOT and All oF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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HAha.. think i going crazy soon too. I think that is my part of my happiness as well. Hope that it is not lOst. hAiz... or is it that.. nO one will understand me. i wanna cry...
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hAha... I still like that past... i like the present.. i hOpe for a better future.
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Last time.. i can feel your sincerity. Hear it.. see it. hAha.. Now i cannot see. I dun know if whatever people tell me is right or wrong. haha... i know is partially right... i know that it depends on occasion. hAha... so what. They are all the same... All the SaME!!!!!
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Now there is a need for Co****Ment. hAha... yet.. i cannot see the sincerity. hMm.. i dont know. I am still a naive girl. hAha... i don't know. i don't know everything. I just dun know why... i felt better in the past... now that i recall. Because many things i cannot control. But now... i still cannot control. hahaha... rubbish.
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+___ I lOve all my fRiends ___+
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
hAha... hMm.. i think i have the 'Weird Day" title b4. Today is another one. hAha... oKiez... just one event. hMm... at night when it was near closing time, Marvin asked us to pack the place. Yupz.. and we all went. I packed and packed... then i went to ProbSch style... Pack half way, some of the lights went off... as many as 9 or less of them. hAha... is a bit scary. I called Marvin then they keep teasing me. hAha... say i so unlucky. Go there only, the lights all spoil. So stupid!!!
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Even worse... the room was filled with the Ciao Ta or Burn smell. I think is really bad. Smelly and Smelly and Smelly. Later, they asked the Wisma ppl to check. After a few minutes, the lights we okiez... This is b4 the Wisma ppl come.
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hMm... i am so tempted.. So Very TempTed.. hahaha...
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To work on 26 May 2005 Midnight Shift. Double Pay!!! And.. sOund so fun to work till so late tOo... I wAnt!!! but on Friday the first lesson start at 9am. Means that i have very little sleep. hAha... haven even decide who is working on that day. Oh yA... and i will also be helping out on the weekends for that week. hEehx... after that week.. have to say Byebye to them.
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Boring day...
It just fell down...
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Roll down somewhere...
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hAha... taste a little salty...
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Difficult to communicate with her...
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Difficult to share or tell things to her...
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Difficult to say things to her...
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Difficult to anything...
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Easy to break her heart...
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Easy to let her tears flow...
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Easy to let her feel existance of her old friend... Loneliness, Boredom
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She needs to be stronger...
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She needs strength...
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She needs Confidence...
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She needs Courage...
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She needs her own heart, mind and soul...
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+___Her... the girl... Lishan___+
Saturday, May 07, 2005
hAha... these few days are fUn and cOol.
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On Thursday. At Orchard MRT station. hAha... i topped up my ezlink card. Then i saw Pan Ling Ling queuing at the line beside me... hAhaha... sO pRetty!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And sO tAll!!!!!!!!.. So hAppy to see her. But when i look at her... heehx... i think got the feeling shouldnt erm... disturb her. LAter she kill me.. hAha.. she got the eyes that say... is there something u want? ~.~ hAha... anyway... she just knew that i noticed her.. thats all.
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On Friday. In the shop Forever 21. hahaha... i saw the Bai Wei Xiu... if this is her name. hAha.. the woman who acted in that NKF show. hAha... yUpz... So Tall and Pretty as weLL. So niCe lOoking!!!!! hAhaha... alll look so pretty. hMm.. i only know she bought a belt. hAha... then i told Janny and Sam in the shop. Both don't know who is she. -___- At least Sali know. hAha... if not i will be like... oOh there is people who don't watch TV... more than me. I thought i am bad enough. -__-
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On Sat. wOke up at 8.30am. Should wake up earlier. haha... But cannot. Oh yA.. in the morning... i was sleeping and i dreamt that My younger brother was bullying me. In the dream... i was like... preparing breakfast. hAha... then my younger brother wanted to make butter on me... then i hit him back. In real life, hAha.. my mother was... i don't know. Think she touch me at the wrong time. hAha.. then become i hit her.. hAha.. but is the no strength kind. hAhaha... i really though my younger brother is bullying me. -___- sOrry Mummy..... then i sayang my Mummy.. haha..
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Yupz... prepared to meet my primary school friends. hAha... cannot help it but to be introvent again. Was very quiet and blur. hMm.. oh ya... confirm 10 ppl.. in the end 8 ppl came. then 9... then 7... then 8... then 7. hAha... Anyway... FengYang is so bAd... Promised to come and was in charge of drinks. In the end never come. He didn't even dare to answer our calls. -__-
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When i reached, i saw.. Kenneth.. ShiMing.. ZhenHui... Faye.. Winnie.. ZhiYang.. then Stanley came after me. With 8 ppl we went to Sentosa by bus. At first, they wanted to take cable car but there was too many ppl. Reached there... we found a shade and put all our things there. Rest and eat the food we brought with us. hAha.. after that... we play volleyball. All don't know how to play volleyball. So.. erm.. fUnny. The way we play it was fUnny. Later, they went to buy a $5 friskbie... haha... i also played. But erm... a bit scared. Later the friskbie hit me then i faint... -__-.. didn't happen.
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The girls went to the toilet and came back. hAha... The guys went to the sea. hMm... with the friskbie and volleyball. Then Faye was on the phone... got ppl pester her... not even her boyfren then ask so many qns. So irritating... that guy. Smack him lo. So meanwhile, me and Winnie went to the sea... touch and play water. haha... then we saw the guys... swam to the other side... or like an island too... sO fUn... i also want to swim there.... but.. scared and no extra clothes.
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Later.... we went to the island that got a bridge connected to it one. hAha.. fUn... hMm... just to play water also. hAha... We went back. hMm... Then the guys and Winnie went for a drink. hMm... i think ShiMing and Zhenhui got drink beer. hAha... coz Zhenhui came back in a bit of a drunk state. Oh yA... Khunglin came too... After people ask him to come. I think till now.. i still cannot really remember who is Khunglin. But then... he look familiar. Need the class pictures from primary 6.
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We played monkey and volleyball. haha... then we ate some food... drink some water... Took some pictures... lalala... and Stanley and Khunglin went off. hAha... Khunglin was dragging Stanley's time. Stanley had a group tuition in the late afternoon. hMm... later... there was like nothing to do so we play... the guess number thingy. ZhiYang keep guessing the right number and so he have to eat many many of the cocktail sausages + Pineapple i brought there. hAhaha.... ShiMing was the lucky one. He ate the least i think.
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Later, we were bored of the game. So we played true or dare. hAha... only ZhenHui.. Kenneth... and Faye got it. hMm... Zhenhui have to walk in his drunk state to the somewhere and shout some words. hAha... Then Kenneth was a truth. They asked him when was the first time he watch... erm... P**n. -_- Then we begin discussing why should they even wanna watch. So sick. haha.. nvm... lAter... Faye was a Dare. She was buried in the sand. We also dragged Zhenhui and he was also buried in the sand. We had the whole scene taken in the Kenneth's camcorder.
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We played ball with Kim. We dun know her but she approached us for games. haha.. she was waiting for her friend. So we played. hAha... at first was volleyball. Then we changed to soccer because we were all playing it in the wrong way. After playing soccer. Many got injured. hAhaha... ZhiYang.. Kenneth.. and Faye's leg got injured.. all by ZhenHui. The way he play was very veyr violent. haha... like full of rage. Rush to the ball and kick... dun care got ppl or not
hahaha... scary. =Kim2k9=
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Later, we packed up and went to meet Nigel who also promised to come but did not. hMm... they went to have dinner at Harbour Front and i went home.
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hAha... my face is red.... arms and hands... tanned... Legs tanned... Body not. haha.. lOoked like i had some weird sockings on me. -_- This let me think of my Sec 1 and 2 days. Play volleyball... tanned myself to a bumble bee pattern. -___-
Thursday, May 05, 2005
~Thursday~
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hAha... my shift was changed from All AM to PM. Crazy. Now i can sleep late and wake up late. The WhOle week no AM at all. Not fair. Bad.. ShhHhh... hMm.. there is a Changed in shift cause Satina not working anymore. hMm... for i also dun know what reason.
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hMm.. At work also got Gossip one. But i don't understand them. hAha.. First one i heard is that... Sali And Moe always bickering. Then this makes them a couple. hAhaha... and they bicker coz of small things. Like for fun that kind. "Sali throw water at me... " "Moe throw blah blah blah at me..." hAha.. this kind lo. Funny.
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Next one is Levin look like Winnie. hAhaha... coz of their hair. But then now no already because Levin cut short hair.
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Then They say they don't like to go for break with Levin. hAhahaha... because he very erm.... Disgusting? hEeh.. is the way he eat bahz. I never go break with him b4 so i don't know. The way they say how he eat... really fUnny too. Ppl don't want to sit in front of him when he eat. haha...
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Ohya... hAha.. and also got something. hMm... the shift always arranged like... Simon and Sali together one. hEeh.. this makes them a couple tOo.. =P
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Then.... the last one i don't really understand.. hAhaha... They say.. Lex and me look like brother and sister. hMm.. but i don't think so lehz.. hAha.. he don't look like my kOrkoR. Or they say Lex and Winnie look like brother and sister. -___- BLur.
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Think still got a lot. But haven hear yet. hAhaha... shall "Da Ting" all this. =P jk
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Hmm... i reserved a t-shirt and pants from Forever 21. hAha.. siAn. Don't know if will got money to buy or not. hEeh.. but most probably buying. Coz is niCe. I like the pants. Look very cute. bUt tOo loNg. Then when i wear the 3 quarter one is not long enough. Like "bu gou chang bu gou duan" -___- Marvin conclude... This is not the merchandise problem... is.. ehem.. -__- i too short. hAha... stupid. Anyway, i reserve the long one. If not happy still can alter. haha...
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Orchard nothing to eat one. hAiz... The nice food are expensive. hAha... now i think have to save money. Can only eat $4 a day. But everyday i eating $5+++ a day. How to sAVe?!?!?!?!
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hMm.. Mother's Day cOming... What tO bUY?!?!?!? Want to bring Mummy out to eat... then Mummy say... wait for Papa to come back. -___- Wait for Papa... dawn already.