Monday, March 07, 2005
hAha.. it seems to me that i had did many wrong things. all my SINS. Who can undo it and erase it? haha... there is a little regret. But 90% of it is all my SINFUL feeling. For just that moment of playfulness or something, i did something so wrong. So gulity. hAha... hOw i wiSh i didn't do anything like that. It is something like, i cannot forgive myself for doing this. How to make myself forget all this that had happened? How to let me be back to normal?
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??
There seem to be a barrier between me and many other people. Is this what i did also? Am i the one who build that barrier? All i know is my heart don't want the existence of that barrier. So, might be me who made the barrier but who continued to build it? I am always here waiting for people. No initiative but at least i am waiting. Not like others who leave without a trace. I am waiting and waiting and waiting.... for a better change... is this something good... oR is it just some fool standing and waiting there for nothing.
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??
Someone told me that males are all the same. Once they get something or what, they will slowly leave and disappear. I don't know if it works for every guy or not. From what i see, there are so many real life people who did that. Wonder if....
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??
Is everything repeating itself again? Everytime this just happens. I will never leave someone out there unless they want to be alone. You(s) are just letting all the good out and the bad in. Why you(s) must do that? I thought only someone as crazy as me will dO this kind of thing. hahaha. Whatever i do, Wherever, Whenever.... aLL of you stayed with me in my heart, i kEep all of you in my heart. All my friends. This also includes loneliness. Contradicting but true. She is just everywhere with me and the only one who is keeping me accompany at any situations.
WHY?? WHAT?? HOW??
You know, not only you(s) have the ability to scare me, ME have the ability to scare myself. Need to visit.........
Why are you(s) floating away?