Saturday, June 18, 2005
hAha... this week is the Accident Week. oR maybe just a narrow escape. ?? was it narrow? haha.. or maybe should be Careless Week. =P
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hMm... the roads are so scary. Few days ago, i was in 151. The bus was on the way to the bus top opposite KAP. haha... given the signal to turn, it started moving again then the bus turn quickly in the other direction. The ppl in the bus was shock lo. hAha.. eh.. including me. This is because of a JB car, on our right side, was trying to go straight. So stupid. That lane was for turning only. hMm... then i think there are some other incidents when i never see the car also. Nearly got ... by car.
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Today, i was crossing the road and i just finished talking to Cindy. I didnt see the cars coming from both directions.. at two different lanes. Luckily, they were moving slowly. haha... hMm.. i really too careless already. That was because i want to tell my family that there is no more dog food at home. While the blur me was crossing the road... Kor kor whispered to my younger brother.." See how this stupid person cross the road" -___- He could have told me first. But then nvm... i cross half way then they tell me so i went back. But there is enough time to cross i think. =P
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After i crossed the road... then again........ blAh blAH blaH... my brother keep saying me... -___- so stupid. dun know lahz... maybe next time be more careful can le. hAha.. if not then got trouble.
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+___ Careless me ___+
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
hMm... i just start to feel cOoled down after i... ='( haha... like does it matter... haiz.. it hurts me to see me thinking in this way. Maybe is not true that they think this and that. i Dun like that way i think... the bad way. If i think positive... everything will be fine right? Why do i have to be the one thinking positive? i am always under ppl's control. hAha... nVm..
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btw..
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HappY biRthday Teresa~*
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Today was a happy dAy... after Taxation, we went to sing. Nice to sing again. Later, when our time at kbox going to reach... we saw Teresa and her friends going to a biG room. hAha.. coz is kind a big pArty. hMm.. then we went to school. Then we went pOol. Later, we went home. Fun as well as a tired and stupid day.
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+___ Not to think in a negative way ___+
I dun even have to right to ask ppl why they want to lend my hp. Sick arhz... this world is so damn Sick. SICK! Heard that. Cannot hear then i will shout louder... STOOooOp it already. What u think?!?!?!?! Anything also can allow? YA... i know i easy to bully and get pushed around. I have right to ask this question.... this very SIMPLE question and get an ANSWER from u? Just for my OWN information. CAnnot?! It is my handphone. All of you.... zhong nan qing nu. SIao...
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Whatever lo. What i have problem lending my hp to ppl. Whatever... i have no problem as long as i know what he going to do to my phone. Want to see what just tell me. There is nothing guilty about it. StupiD. Whatever!!! just tell me the reason... i will lend it to you.
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My turn to ask. YOU have a problem giving an Answer? ONLY a simple answer is what i am asking for. Outburst. Stupid. LAme. Crazy. Do i have to pLEAd for it?
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You all didnt care about my feelings. You just care for me coz i am a human being... not becoz i am Lishan. You all like to stress me till like crazy... not only you all forcing me against the wall... i am doing it too... JUSt Stop... at least.. STop using that stupiD tone. Stop shouting... Stop using that.. "It should be that way and you are doing it all WRong" Tone. You may not be thinking that u used that tone... but my brain Thinks that it is.
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+___ LEave me alone ___+
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
hEyz... ask me if i am happy or not. hAha... want the answer? who cares lo. -__-
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Today on the phone with my Mummy. haha... i sound harsh.. but then i a bit joking.. then i a bit serious... then i abit complaining tone. haha... but i think they will think that i am scolding them. haha.. but then it is all true.. Can they just take it easy for me..
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Blah bLah blaH... haiz... why like this and that. Why am i like this and that. I cannot control but to feel that way when blAh... haha... maybe that is the feeling of Blah blAh blaH... think no one will understand that Blah blAh blaH feeling. Or maybe they will think that i am proud or whatever. hAha... i not lo. i juSt dun want to interrupt.
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Another blAh blAh... why cannot communicate le arhz... coz all like weird weird de.. so also will feeling blAh blAh.. then... i also feel blAh blAh.. coz ppl with me will also feel blAh blAh... coz whatever blAh blAh... then like... weird weird one.. so bLah bLah lo.
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+__ Blah blAh blaH entry __+
Friday, June 10, 2005
hAha... today arhz.... nothing much happen lo. Still the same not good mood. hAha.. then i think is better than yesterday. hMm... cannot understand both lectures. hAha... i was busy feeling tired and exhausted. hAha...
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Went for tutorial. haha... like this lo. hAha... so bOring. I am unhappy with tons of people. Well... is not their problem.. iS my own Attitude problem. hAha.. i just cannot tahan of the list of sick things i felt. Is like... 1 whole big bag of crazy thinkings. hAha.. anyway... i just felt like closing myself in an enclosed area if i could. But i know this will make things worse...
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Sorry to make anyone worry or something. And Sorry to create some misunderstandings... like making people think. haha.. Well... Thank you for people comforting me, Even not by saying anything... haha.. i can sense it. =D in any case Thank You Very Much.
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Ya.. i know my face have that long long shape. hahaha...
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anyways.. During the break, hEehx... we all went to atrium. hMm... i didnt see Edmund or Binghui or Hannah even though JiaYi pointed out to me where they are. I just cannot see where are they. haha... maybe green is really a good colour to camoflauge. hAha...
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hAha... later, Jiayi painted my left hand and Suhana painted my right. As in paint the nails. hEehx.. Thank yOu!!!! Look very niCe lehz. hAhaha... i feel like a girl again. hEyz.. 2 times in a roll for 2 days. =D
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After lecture, i went to Mambo to find them. I just want to pass all the notes that is not mine to them so that my file will be less bulky. No other reason. So i can group my notes when i am home or something. Edmund stopped playing. haha.. then we went off together.
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Wewent Wisma. Coz i need to buy the something for something. hEehx.. a secret. We talked about some things... Later.. we walked around orchard. hAha.. then we walked around Paragon. Later... we went to Lucky Plaza to eat chicken rice. hAha... then we went home. X
hAha.. these days title are all "tired". All the unhappiness in this period of time.
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Stressed by homework
Stressed by homework
Stressedmy homework
Sick of sick people
Sick of sick people
Sick of sick people
Sick of being stupid all the time
Sick of looking at CRappo
Sick of being not there when i am there
Sick of being treated like this
Sick of being nagged and nagged
Sick of being not understood
Sick of reading notes that i don't understand
Sick of chasing people around
Sick and tired of asking questions
Sick of not getting an answer
Sick of wetting the papers
Sick of losing
Sick of being invisible like a piece of glass
Sick of looking at people i want to look at but they don't want to see me
Sick of feeling that feeling...
Sick of seeing some stuff
Sick of being messed with
Sick of all people not caring whatever bout me
Sick of being alone
Sick of knowing that no one listens
Sick of knowing no one is there to help
Sick of knowing that i am stranded on an island
Sick of thinking of all these
Sick of people thinking that i had a motive in doing things when i DOn't
Sick of wanting something but couldnt get
Sick Sick Sick of so many things.......
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Well for everything. I am really happy to know that some people do care. Erm... really for people out that who cares... i know that you do... sO.. Thank yOu vEry much!. Love the fact, feel blessed to know you (s)~*
Sunday, June 05, 2005
\?/Physically Tired\?/
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hAha... sO vEry tired. Becoz i got just came home from Marina Sq. I went there to watch Madagascar!!! Did i spell it correctly? hEehx... what is the moral of the story? Never make silly wishes!!!... dUh... jk. hAha... hMm... Mummy said.. Moral of the story is: The world outside is just complicated! So When u have a Home cherish. Like the animals... they will realise that Home is still the best. So dun just think about Fun... in the wild. There is also Danger element to deal with. Cherish what you have now. Ppl...
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hMm... haha... Watched 2 movies in this week. Monster-in-law and Madagascar. hahaha... All starting with "M"! hEehx... there is still a Long List of movies i wanna chase after!
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*Bewitched*War of the Worlds*HitchHikers Guide to the Galaxy*Mr. and Mrs. Smith*Unleashed*Dun know what Children and It*Initial D* erm.. think is still got one. Just too tired to think of more movies. =P
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So this morning woke up and help my Mother do somethings. hAha.. then bath. Go out to have... erm... breakfast? or Lunch? hAha.. i woke up at 11 plus. hMm.. yupz. Went downstairs to eat. Ate noodles. hAha... then went to pick kor kor gf. 3 of us went to AMK.
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The way Kelly presuaded the customer is too persuasive. hAha.. even i listening only wanted to shut her up!!!!! Ppl already said no lo... so stop it already... i cannot slp okiez. hMm.. anyway.. her tactic is not bad. First... crap with customers and talk about the good things is life which can link with the business... Praise her... later a little while.. mixture of those and talking about other customers. That makes her comparing previous customers with the current one. A bit irritating to me. But nvm... is not about bad things. Later, introducing more plans to customer. Then... when customer said No. She tried to persuade her by.... U know arhz.. you still young lehz... blah blah Blah.... and.. started to compare her with the other customers in the not so good way. okiez.... is a bad thing to do okiez... but she talked about this still talk about her bad parts that can link to the business.... a bit critising.. but is true of coz. But... is bad right?!?!?! After 5 mins of doing the wrong thing and saying it of coz... She talked about the price... and discount she can give if the customer still insisted a NO. The bad thing is... after she said No.. she still continue with her Nonsense..... the a while later... then no more talking coz the customer will discuss with her friend later...
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hAha.. this must be why i dislike her. I cannot stand her.. Not even looking at her face. She talk only.... i feel like shuting her. HAhahaha... evil! But... nothing personal. Maybe i just feel Bu Shuang about her. Think she think she too smart or what... Lame woman. Even when she call me on the phone... i will feel uncomfortable. Maybe she act cute or what... anyway... her actions just.... made me feel disgusted. hMm... in any case... maybe she is a good person just that i haven seen her good points. hAha... she just... force ppl too much bahz. That why i dun really like her.
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I like and support freedom of my choice. Any kind of freedom. hEehx..
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After that, we went to the coffee shop just next to the shop. hMm.. ate a bit. hAiz... was already full. Then need to finish up the food. Later, we went home. I keep asking the wrong qns at the wrong time in front of my brother. hEehx... i didnt mind doing it. =P Stupid brother.... cannot just give me an absolute answer. Kept me waiting. -__- anyway... i did it 2 times! cOol!!! =P
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I went to Bugis Topshop to find Lee Sze if she can help me get staff discount for the bag elsewhere. hAha... she said that her friend just quit not long. OMG!!!!! Why is this sO?!?!?!?!?! HOw can U all dO THIs to Me?!?!?! i really love the bag!!!! hAha... erm.. not so crazy lahz. But till now i haven seen a nicer and simple bag like that. I wANt!!!!! hAiz.. looks like i have got to wait for her to call her fren and ask her fren to ask her fren fren to see if can give me discount or not. hEehx... Complicated.
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After visiting ppl at Topshop.. Lee Sze.. Topman.. Erm... Marco and Nurlinda.. haha.. Oh ya.. Nurlinda is pregnant with a giRl. Heehx.. sO cOol. a girl is gOod. =P haha... hOpe she will take good care of herself! =D Then i went to check on the time slot for Madagascar. hAha... only got for 6pm. -__- It was 6.15pm already. -__- So i went to Marina Sq to buy the 9.20pm Tickets.
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While waiting for time to pass and my family to come. I shopped about. I think all the shops except for those closed and Maternity one... i went in b4 and shopped. hAhahaha... "Rain" got super lots of nice things!!!! But.. i only bought a sleeveless. i want the Minnie mouse one... but Mummy said... dun look nice. ='/ hMm... that was very long. I walked around from 6 plus to 9pm. HAha.. and i went out of house at 5pm. So from 5 to 920pm... i was standing or walking. haha...
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They met me at Long John Sliver. haha.. then i brought Mummy up to see the clothes i like that buy... then watch Movie. Bought Nachos and went in Cinema. W.Song want popcorn.... so i went out to buy the Madagascar combo for all of us to share. hAha... then i walk up the escalator... and tripped a little bit. So some of the popcorn drop. hAha... lucky i didnt fall.. coz i have no more hands to support myself. -__- hEeh... both movies i watched in this week is niCe~~~ After the movie, we went hOme...
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+___Sleepy Sleep Sleep___+