Friday, July 01, 2005
This few days.. or this week. hAha... is not a good week... or maybe sometimes is a good week. It is just all the mindset and the point of view we look at it. And me...is a good example of someone who looks at things at a bad way. I wasnt myself lately. hMm.. is just like, i was trying to make everyone not happy. Is just.... maybe for no reason? hAha... maybe i am stressed and changed to someone i am not. Stressed and stressed on many things. But then... to tell who? hAha... sometimes tell already... got more scary things happen.
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hAha... Will people understand what i am feeling? Isolated... not ppl isolated me.. or maybe partly.. many times is i did it myself. hMm... i know is bad. For all the bad things i did this week or for the past few weeks... i will change and be a good girl. haha... Sorry if i made anyone felt uncomfortable.
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Hmm... who understand what i said? hAha... raise up your hands.. =P
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oKiez... haha... so be a good girl means... being good. No hiding to ppl eg. where i went. No pulling long face. No bully. Be more socialable. hMm... think i am good already.. =P haha... as long as i can control myself. hAha...
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Surely you all know what it felt like when u cannot melt in surroundings? hAha... i mean.. it is not different. Is the same... just the point of view you look at it. hAha... i am reminding myself again. hAha... is there a good point of view when u get scolding? Initially... i think it is a NO! hMm.. now think is a Yes. Coz i will know what is not good for me? hAiz.... stressed and stressed and still get scolding and stressed. what is so good about this? hAha...
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hAppy things? Ya... definitely have. hAha... like eating nice nice food... hMm... play play... hMMmm.... and others.. i cannot remember. hAha...
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Haiz... i feel so childish. haha... is like... my actions are childish... not is good childish.. the bad childish. hAha... what is the use of realising that it is wrong after what u have done? Yupz... that is to change. hMm.. i really hope i will work on a better attitude. hAha... no more... bad bad girl. Must be gOod good girl. not difficult right? Just need discipline. haha... yeah right.. i need reminders. hEehx. How i wish that.. i can be happy everywhere.. with any friends... and sociable... and hardworking... and smart... heehx... if i am so good. I am not me.
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