Saturday, September 29, 2007
I think i need a erm.. someone to complain.. then can advice me.. and keep the secrets for me. haha.. think that this person has to be a professional then can solve my problems.
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Think i getting more and more emo. Nowadays the moodswing very very fast. hahah.. i can cry while doing my work at work. The work is too easy for me.. so it allows my mind to wonder around things and my mind keep talking to myself and complaining to myself. haha.. think i driving myself crazy.
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Just feel that i am always restricted and theres so many restrictions for me. I consider myself as a not a bad girl. I don't have a night life, no clubbing, no supper with friends, little outings with friends.. or sometimes none, low communication chances with human and a lot more. Why is there still so many restrictions? Don't know when will this end.. haha.. i already 20. but i have a mind of a 12yr old bah..
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I just hope that i can be treated more like a human being. haha.. not that my family will torture me. Just that the rules, the insults, the reprimandings, the way we communicate, our problems.. are all driving me to a corner.
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If theres something to describe me.. i think is a Broom.. Ugly looking broom. haha.. Brooms can't talk. Brooms dun make broom friends. Brooms are made of wood.. like my brain.. so dumb. Brooms are stiff. Brooms dun last long. Brooms are always being bullied, kicked around and scolded. Brooms look Ugly. Brooms are TOTALLY under the control of human beings. Noone cares about the Brooms. Brooms do dirty jobs. Brooms are smelly. Brooms are
always left behind. Brooms are the least impt thing at home. Usefulness 1/10.
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This is best description of myself.